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To me or not to me – richardhwrote
Skip to content I never understood what people meant by “I feel like the true me”, it made me wonder who else they were before they discovered themselves. Then the last year happened and it started making sense.
Coming to terms with my past and hearing the correct language used towards me, made me feel like a victim or a problem. Then I started to realise that although I’m not a problem, I was a victim, but that doesn’t need to define my future.
Then I received a diagnosis for Autism and ADHD and I started to understand myself more, both my actions and my thoughts. Now I find myself a year on from Tim’s conviction, and almost a year since my diagnosis, and the phrase “I feel like the true me” is one I find myself using. I’m calmer, less angry, I find myself laughing and enjoying things more, and I find myself wanting to work more with my psychiatrist, because for the first time in my life, I mean it when I say I like the person I am.
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