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Blog – richardhwrote
Skip to content I never understood what people meant by “I feel like the true me”, it made me wonder who else they were before they discovered themselves. Then the last year happened…
It doesn’t feel like a year has gone by but it’s almost exactly one year since I logged into the Swindon Crown Court system and watched the judge dispense his…
New Years Eve: A time to rejoice and celebrate. A time for family and friends. A time to wave goodbye to the year that’s passed and wax lyrical about the…
After the verdict and sentencing, it took a while for the dust to settle. The last four years of my life had been consumed by the investigation and trial dates.…
In the last email I hope to ever receive from the CPS, they told me what I already knew about Tim’s sentencing, and that The Restorative Justice Team would be…
I didn’t want Jon to be in court with me. As much as knowing he was there would be a comfort, it would also make me conscious of what I…
The defence barrister, Ms Nadia Chbat, managed to obstruct the rescheduling of the trial for another two months. It wasn’t until the Judge summoned her back to court where she…
DC Ross completed the case file, and towards the end of 2021 my chosen-country’s borders opened after lockdowns. Getting home was disorienting. My husband had to move apartments while I…
By the time England was in the Christmas lockdown of 2020, Alfie was ready to his interview. He made the same choice as me and went on his own, but…
DC Ross came back into the interview room with a handful of paperwork. I still hadn’t had it confirmed that the person I was talking about and the article I’d…
I never understood what people meant by “I feel like the true me”, it made me wonder who else they were before they discovered themselves. Then the last year happened…
It doesn’t feel like a year has gone by but it’s almost exactly one year since I logged into the Swindon Crown Court system and watched the judge dispense his…
New Years Eve: A time to rejoice and celebrate. A time for family and friends. A time to wave goodbye to the year that’s passed and wax lyrical about the…
After the verdict and sentencing, it took a while for the dust to settle. The last four years of my life had been consumed by the investigation and trial dates.…
In the last email I hope to ever receive from the CPS, they told me what I already knew about Tim’s sentencing, and that The Restorative Justice Team would be…
I didn’t want Jon to be in court with me. As much as knowing he was there would be a comfort, it would also make me conscious of what I…
The defence barrister, Ms Nadia Chbat, managed to obstruct the rescheduling of the trial for another two months. It wasn’t until the Judge summoned her back to court where she…
DC Ross completed the case file, and towards the end of 2021 my chosen-country’s borders opened after lockdowns. Getting home was disorienting. My husband had to move apartments while I…
By the time England was in the Christmas lockdown of 2020, Alfie was ready to his interview. He made the same choice as me and went on his own, but…
DC Ross came back into the interview room with a handful of paperwork. I still hadn’t had it confirmed that the person I was talking about and the article I’d…
I only had to wait two days for my interview, and in some ways I was glad it wasn’t longer. Not because I was going to get cold feet, they…
I hadn’t thought I’d sleep, but I woke from a dreamless blackness. I looked at the clock, 06:42. Tonight there’d be police here. The woman who took my call said…
My breath was warm on my hands as I cradled my face. I lifted my head and looked at my phone beside me on the sofa. When I’d sent Alfie…
I want to take a break from the serious side of life for a moment, and so I present, The Secrets Tree. The idea for this story came to me…
On a chilly autumn night in 2020, at around 3 a.m., I walked home talking to my phone. I’d taken to recording my thoughts and feelings. I wasn’t in the…
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